Tilt. It’s the word I’ve been reflecting on for the last week. Tilt in swordplay is the action of thrusting forward, leaning in and opening yourself up to attack. The only way to attack is to open yourself up the possibility of the counter. Back and forth, fencers will clash, parry, and dodge waiting for the moment to lunge forward for the attack, to strike without a moment’s hesitation. To tilt, even though you are facing the blade.
I’m a slow starter; I like to mull things over. Generally, the result is the lack of spontaneity in my actions, but I can’t help myself, I like being right. I’ll think about the cost and benefit, or if there was anything else I a forgetting, or simply an opportunity I am awaiting .
What it is, is ridiculousness. I am afraid of attacking life, leaving myself open for the counter. I’ve grown good at defense; I think a lot of us have, I can take the pain but once hurt you worry about being hurt again. To attack, you must open yourself up; it feels uncomfortable and bare. I need to work on that, make it, so I become used to the lunge, to the blade, to being open for the counter.
Life is not always a battle; it can be a lesson or a break. Taking the time to learn when to counter, or parry, and forging the relationships of the people who will help you in your fight. There is style and grace that each person brings to their battles, we have to learn our own and without trying something different and new, we could never know our full potential.
I must learn to tilt, to lean in and strike when the opportunity arises. Once I get better at the fight, I can learn to create my opportunities, to learn with every battle comes a lesson. I need open myself so I learn to thrust tried and true, to take advantage of any opening I can perceive. I want to learn, how to strike without hesitation and face the blade without fear. All in the sake of trying something new.