With new challenges come new obstacles and difficulties. I find myself wanting to sleek back into the habit I had before of avoiding the problem hiding away until someone or something else takes care of it. It’s a habit I formed long ago to deal with all the fear and disappointment I felt from my lack of power in the world. I secluded myself to reading stories about people who did more, tried more, and were more than I felt I could ever be. I had dreams but now a plan to accomplish them. Each moment I spent with these heroes, I felt as if they were giving me something to carry within myself, a sense of spirit and power.
There is one thing that I feel is almost universal about them, is that against extreme odds they do not let the despair of failure cloud their actions. They press on against this seemingly unrelenting force to create change in the world. Though not all of them may be the most reliable form the onset, they do what needs to be done because it needs to be done. They find their purpose and pursue it, and it might be the naivety of my feeling about stories, but if that isn’t one of the more beautiful things life, I don’t really know what is.
What I feel might be one of the more cliche acts that I hold dear to my heart is when a new and unexpected challenge arises, a smile breaks loose from the heroes. A smile that speaks volumes about how even though the world seems to be crashing down on them, and fate calling for the end, they embrace the chaos of the situation and for a moment are willing to collect the charges of taking on the entire world.
I know in a way its a bit of a silly trope, but a smile breaks down a situation and finds humor in the ridiculousness that our world offers us. It moves us from being crushed by the weight of the world to feeling free of its burdens. It gives life to those who feel like theirs is ending. A smile and a laugh are amazingly powerful things.
I am trying to emanate those heroes that are engrained in my heart. Becoming strong in my own way and fighting my own battles, each successive victory giving me the knowledge that I can go a bit further than I was before. I hope that when the cards are down, when the world seems to be crashing down around me, that instead of hiding away and hoping it all passes over, that I smile and accept the challenge the world has offered, fighting tooth and nail for victory. This knowing that only way out is forward and all of us are stronger than we believe.