Sometimes all I can do is sigh in the intervening days between where I am and where I want to be. I sigh in frustration, and in exhaustion, because these days seem to be spiced with flavors I don’t like.
My life is in no counts bad, quite honestly I count my blessings daily. The problem lies with the issue I have of when my plans will finally gain some traction, and I can move to the next level in life. I work towards my goals, in my way, though a lot of the time I don’t feel like I am doing enough because I am not getting the results I want. I am attempting to see the big picture in it all; it’s still difficult to see the forest for the trees.
I find that perseverance is the only way to deal with the hand I have. Again it’s not a bad hand; it’s just not a winning one. I lay somewhere in the middle, having a hand that if no one at the table has anything I have nothing to worry about, but it wouldn’t take much to top. In these types of games, it’s about waiting for the opportune moment. Looking at my bets and investments, hoping my card come up but having a plan for when it doesn’t. I have to keep playing, know the table, make strategic moves and know that even I lose in a round the game is not over.
This is my the great lesson of this year, grit. The ability to keep at something no matter what comes my way. Its to get an understanding of the bitter flavors the world has to offer but not losing heart.
It’s hard, bouncing back after each blow, luckily after I’ve taken a lot of them I’ve gotten used to it. Standing up after each hit is hard work, at points I want to break down, forget it all, and leave what I have accomplished at the table. I keep going until it becomes more habit than thought. I know what I want, and at the moment, I need to keep working at it if I even hope to stand a chance. Life is a tough opponent, but I am fighting back.
Grit is something that I am learning, and I will keep at it. Changing my life is about doing, not talking about what I should do. I will make sure that my blood, sweat, and tears are working toward the future I want and towards shaping the person I will become. It’s hard work, but sometimes the best thing to do is to grit your teeth. It will get better, I’ll make sure of it.