Ever wonder why curiosity killed the cat? I frequently do. Part of me thinks it found out something it shouldn’t and a gang of shady cats had to silence him. Or perhaps the reason could be tragic, like learning that everyone had been living a lie just to appease the cat. I know there is no answer, but it doesn’t stop me from asking the question.
It’s questions that get me into trouble, a trouble that I both love and hate. Constantly forming them in my mind, questions have a need for an answered. That is when the hunt begins, where will I find the answers? Ordinarily this type of hunting is encouraged, accumulating knowledge is a good thing. Tracking down and capturing the answers has always been a joy of mine, one I hope to keep the duration of my life. There are road blocks, places I am not permitted to hunt. As always that makes these places all the more appealing. Hunting the questions that lay deep within the human heart. These answers I can’t find with a quick google search are the ones that are the most worthwhile to me. Of course, those are the ones that adults teach children not to ask. If you have talked to me, you may think I missed that day in class. That’s where the trouble begins.
The unknown taunts me. When an event I don’t understand happens, I must know why. People are full of these wonderful events. That makes me want to know this history of people, what makes them tick. All the little events that drive them motivate them to act. Their secrets form the missing pieces to the puzzle. I start asking questions, simple ones at first, then they get more intrusive. I have frequently apologized for prying, but I can’t help myself. It’s like a dangling candy in front of my eyes; I will reach for it. I am curious by nature and in that respect a glutton for knowledge. A lot of the time, I just want to know.
I went on an information diet, becoming satiated with smaller amounts of answers. Learning about people has helped with this process. Allowing me to connect open pieces of people’s lives creating a portrait of who they are. Seeing how different colors set the tones of life. A painting that will only finish when there is no more time to paint.
I think about people all day, asking why. I have come to grips with the fact that I am a psychology nut, but it is my great passion, the great hunt of my life, one I will pursue to the ends of the earth and that makes me happy.