This happens every time! Something good happens, and I should be jumping for joy and be screaming to the heavens, but nothing moves within me. It were much colder and calculated wondering about the next step to take. It’s infuriating!
Not to mention the slight overhang of matters of emotion and the hearts that seems to overhang like an overcast day, why won’t you at least let the sun in for peak of how bright the future might be.
I find this whole emotional state to be incredibly bothersome and a bit of an annoyance. My body is tired along with my eyes and yet with the mere mention of what should make me happy I feel nothing. Maybe it will hit me later when I least expect it, but intuition is telling me to wait for the clouds to pass, for the wind to come and blow them out of my otherwise bright sky and then finally I will be happy with the ray touching my face.
Maybe a good nights sleep will do it, free me of this mood, free me from feeling as happy as everyone seems to think I should be. Allow me to be excited. My heart controls when I get excited, unfortunately, and it will only move when it wants to. So for now, I wait to see if it will move for me or perhaps someone else. Either way, it doesn’t change the amount of work I need to do, I will keep at because I am finally starting to hear the winds of change.