I have a problem. It’s not a huge problem, and for the most part, it may sound like I am complaining about nothing but its a problem just the same. It started when I was younger, and as an off-hand joke. Being a tall, dark haired white guy in a group of mostly Asians lead to one of my friend’s parents calling me Superman. Now I have never taken this seriously; I find it endearing more than anything, but then it happened again, and again… and again from various people. I don’t like this designation, and it’s not because I can’t take a compliment. It’s because I don’t like the idea that what I do is super human, it discounts all the work I did to get to where I am
I don’t understand why but I would like to believe it’s because of my overactive conscious. I blame my parents for that one. My mind and body just hate it when I not following the high road or attempting to do something that might be considered wrong. Now over the years, I was able to calm down, so it wasn’t as daunting, but it doesn’t change the fact that my default is to try and help people the best I can, even if I fall short of that. I work hard to have the ability to help people whenever I can.
It’s a mentality that I am both proud of and drives me crazy. Whenever I see someone suffering or a person in need, I react. I have a deep disdain for suffering in other people, in my ideal world, people would be happy more often than anything else. It’s burdensome; there are times when I want to rush in and save the day, but I realize that people are sometimes better off having learned the lesson for themselves. Sometimes I need to step back and let people struggle and grow on their own. It’s the responsibility of the people who know how to help, to know when to give it.
I am fortunate to have been able to have these types of feelings. I am lucky to have the ability to help. At points, my thoughts and interests on the matter can be a bit idealistic, but it’s that I believe in the goodness of humanity, and our capability to do good things for one another. It’s with these thoughts that I hold myself to a high standard. I do this to prove the point that an average person can do extraordinary things not because I am more capable but because I believe that I can and am willing to do the work.
I don’t mind becoming Superman if it means that I could represent all the things we could all do, all the things we can be. I will always believe in people; that’s just who I am. Every day I work a little bit harder towards my dreams and to making the world I want to see. If it means I can help people, then I’ll be whoever I need to be, Superman or just me.