Today I wanted to start with one of my favorite quotes by Mark Twain:
“History doesn’t repeat itself, but it does rhyme.”
It brings me back to thinking about how one of my favorite teachers talked about the cycles and circles that civilizations travel, becoming more modern and more “civilized” only to fall back into the same trend as before. Seemingly following an inescapable track which spirals upwards in history. A ring for which we all must travel through the course of our lives.
Recently I have been feeling as if my life as been going in a strange circle, a loop for which there is no end. Though it’s not the same place in which I started, its similar. Not the same conversation, but close. Finding myself in situations in which I thought I had just gotten out of. Some of the circles are good ones, eating right, exercising, talking with friends but not all are positive. Coming face to face with things over and over, choosing similar answers to the situation only to bring me back to the same place a little while later. It’s the power of habit and comfort controlling my life. This track in which I have grown accustom but at the same time somewhat despise because nothing changes. The same choices and no changes.
The only way to break free of this track in which I am riding is to choose a different road. Go on a different path, one I have never gone on before. For me its hard to stray from this place I have become so accustomed, in which I have this illusion of control. I just can’t keep doing the same thing over and over again and expecting for me to get further on my journey. These are chaotic rings that allow me to choose over and over again a different path, allow me to change my life at any moment of it, but make the path always look less promising that what I know. That is the curse of the other path, it’s not a guarantee nor do I know where it leads. On the road in which to improve myself the only thing to do is to learn from my mistakes and take the other path hoping I find a better track to ride, I at least have the power to choose which cycle in which I want to become accustom.