I am by no means an only child, my parents saw fit to provide me with a sibling from before I was even born, such forethought was reconsidered each and every time my sister and I would fight. I have been fortunate enough to have many siblings, one by blood, two by law, and all others through experience. I am by no means an only child, I don’t think it suits me.
When I was young, prepubescent. I developed a desire to be left alone most of the time. I wanted to leave this world and go to another because this one was painful and hard. It had felt like I had already messed up and I wasn’t good enough to do be special. It’s a hard thing, special because everyone wants to be it, but only in the way that’s popular or right. So I spent time trying to create this image (with little success) to aspire to be something I was not, and that’s where siblings burst in. You see siblings are there to keep your head from getting too big or save you from smoothing out all the edges of your personality. To keep you real, even when that’s the furthest from what you want to be. I think a lot of us have this type of experience with our siblings. We hate listening to them when we know they are right, we fight them over the stupidest things, know how to get under each other’s skin. But all part of the process of growing up, a kind of practice for the real world with people who are willing to stand up for you because deep down you respect them.
I’m lucky though, aside from the ones tied to me, I have friends who are willing to set me straight. Keep me real, be there when I need them to be. They are my family too because they are people I would give my life for if they needed it. They are part of my life regardless of how long it takes between phone calls because they know we will always be there for them.
I know this isn’t deep, or as long as my usual musings but I wanted to take a moment to appreciate all those people in my life I feel like are family. My brothers and sisters who always have my back, thank you. And to my sister, know I appreciate what you have done even when you are fighting for a relationship with your resistant little brother.